And we're back!
Since I last wrote, I had a freakin' baby! Cooper Radley was born February 27th at 12:11 AM. He was a big boy, weighing in at 9 lbs 6 oz. I had a rather challenging delivery, with an epidural that stopped working (but kept my legs paralyzed) and a baby that was face up that didn't want to come out. After 24 hours of active labor, 3 hours of pushing and a scary vacuum extraction, our sweet little son joined us in the world.
He is perfect.
I love being a mommy but it's not as easy as it seems in the beginning. They don't tell you how absolutely terrifying the first week or two is. More times than not I thought I was going crazy and didn't know how I would ever become a functional mommy. I don't know how I would have gotten through the first two weeks without the help of Jory and our families. It was overwhelming... yet my natural instincts got me through it. You end up knowing what to do and have to trust yourself.
Now, I'm trying to balance my days. Trying to get enough sleep. I have had a tough time with nursing, but it's seeming to get easier every day. Hopefully in a few weeks it will be effortless. Today, Cooper is 18 days old and I have already lost 35 lbs from my weight right before he was born. I hope the nasty rainy weather calms down so I can resume my walks with Cooper. I hope to start yoga this week to help center and balance myself.
Our parents are proving to be wonderful grandparents, they are naturals. They are just as filled with love for Cooper as we are and I love seeing them all so happy. Cooper has five grandparents and six great-grandparents. He is one lucky and extremely loved little boy.
I had no idea how much love I could have for someone until Cooper was born. When he looks at me and smiles my heart melts and I'm filled with warmth and pride.
Now, I am going to focus on being a mommy... but also on getting myself back in shape and resuming my healthy lifestyle. I will be transitioning back into a vegetarian/vegan lifestyle and hope it's not too difficult for me. Tonight Cooper's daddy is out with the boys and I plan on finding some tasty vegetarian and vegan recipes.