22 Pounds!

The official count is 22! I've lost 22 lbs since February 12th!

It's amazing what dicipline can do. If I could accomplish this I truly have faith that anyone can.

And I'm not miserable. I keep hearing people say "I could never live without cheese" and "I hate exercising, I can't do it" and "I don't feel well".

It's bullshit. I'm the laziest person I know. Seriously. But I find time to exercise. I eat delicious food but am mindful of what it is I put into my body. And if I don't feel like working out, I at least walk around the block.

Everybody get healthy! You only get one body to last your whole life. Take care of it!

Little Fucking Assholes

Yeah, I said it. Little fucking Assholes. It's my blog, I'll swear if I want to.

There are so many little fucking assholes in community college, it makes me want to rip my hair out. I know that it's not important for half of these fuckers to be in class. I know most of them are fresh out of high school, pressured by their parents to do something with themselves and all schedule their classes together so they can chat all fucking night... all while I'm trying to get an education.

SHUT UP!

I am paying a LOT of money to go to school, out of pocket, no financial aid and this is important to me. I've started calling out the little fuckers who talk and giggle during presentations and I'm going to continue to do so. I don't mean to be a bitch, but it's beyond small talk. It's loud, disruptive giggling conversations. NOT OK.

Almost there...

I am so close to being done with school, it fucking hurts. It looks like I will be accomplishing my goal, which is graduating with my AA and transferring by the age of 30. It's a late start, but a start nonetheless. If all goes as planned I'll be done even sooner.

After that? State University!!
Which one? I have no fucking clue!

I'm leaning towards SF State, but we'll see.

I'm pretty stoked. I have always wanted a Psychology degree and I'm content with my major.

I'm switching schools and will be attending Berkeley City College full time for the Summer semester. It's overwhelming to think I will be going to work for 8 hours and then to school for another 4, three days a week.

My motivation? To make a good life for me and The Boy. To be able to get my career going and get out of debt so we can buy a house here in our town. My credit has been royally fucked up since my divorce and I want to clean it up and get our finances in order.

And one day it'll all be worth it.

Random Ass Shit Part 3

Chariot Skates! FUCK YEAH!

I would LOVE to skate on these. SO awesome.

Menu: Beer

I found this on the floor of my office. I needed a laugh today.

Toss the Soda!

I came across this article on Nutrition Research Center's website and it's pretty interesting.

Check it out!


Link:
What Happens To Your Body Within an Hour of Drinking a Coke.

For Tara

Channeling Dawn Wiener...

I Just Don't Get It

I don't understand how people can risk giving up everything they have and the person that loves them most for a few seconds of fun. I am sick of hearing about Tiger Woods an all his mistresses. The first thing I think about is his poor wife and all that she must feel every time she sees one of the million articles or broadcasts about her husbands betrayals.

His selfishness not only makes his partner feel insignificant and undesirable, it makes these behaviors seem almost normal or expected because he is a public figure and a role model to many. Being a celebrity is not an excuse. Being a priest is not an excuse. Being Chris Brown isn't an excuse. Just because you have a different status than the rest of us simpletons doesn't mean you are entitled to be forgiven for horrible behavior or that what you have done is warranted justification. That behavior is unacceptable.

I am dealing with trust issues in my own household right now. Sometimes I want to walk out. What's worth asking is "will this happen again?" Nine times out of ten the answer is yes.


I'm not sure I have felt worse about myself in the last few years, this morning being most significantly horrible. And I haven't actually been physically cheated on. I can't imagine being in the spotlight after having someone, that I considered the closest person to me, risk everything we built together. Is it that these people don't think they're going to get caught or that they feel they will be redeemed and forgiven so it's worth the risk?

When I am in a relationship I hold my partner on a pedestal and they are pretty much my everything. That's how it should be and the person you choose to spend your life with should be grateful for it and gracious that you love them so. After all, you're giving another person the gift of holding all your secrets, your fears, your insecurities, your vulnerabilities, your intimacies and more importantly, your love and trust. I left a relationship because I was taken for granted and I don't ever want to feel that way again. So WTF is up with all these people taking their partners for granted? WTF?

I just don't get it.

Day Time TV Blows

I am off work and in bed today, still recovering from oral surgery on Friday. I was hoping to go back to work today but my mouth is still too swollen to even stick a spoon in it. I'll know today (after a post-op appointment) if I get to work tomorrow or not.


But I still look like Rocky Dennis and I'm nervous about it. I thought the swelling would start going down by now but it's worse than it was yesterday and it's day 4.

In the meantime, I'm laying in bed and joining the rest of the people living in 2010 by joining Twitter (follow me @alie_boo) and watching day time TV. I have to say, I expected day time TV to have gotten a little better than it was when I was in school. It's ALL THE SAME SHIT as it has been for the last 15 years. Who do I complain to about this? Maury had a woman on today who had sex with 100+ men and has yet to find her baby daddy. Judge Alex is mediating between an ex-stripper and a photographer. It's just bad... but it always has been, I suppose. I guess I'd like to see somethine like MXC or something funny and interesting. Shit, I think Sesame Street on every channel would be better than the crap that's on the TV these days.

Odd.

I think I am the most self conscious person ever. I have always felt odd. Like my thoughts weren't normal. Like I taked to much or was too loud. Like people were always annoyed with me or I was constantly doing something wrong. I never really felt liked. I still feel like that sometimes. I feel like my personality overwhelms people.

That's part of the reason I'm so insanely obsessed with my dog. He's this amazing little creature that loves unconditionally. He's always standing behind me, sitting next to me or following me. It feels great to have a being think so highly of you. I think my friend Irene said "I try to be the person my dog thinks I am." Perfect.

Mask

I feel like Eric Stoltz in Mask. Call it dramatic if you will... but I'm fucking miserable. This photo was taken yesterday. Today my face is twice as big. The procedure went fast and well, and there is no longer a wisdom tooth in my sinus cavity.