Tuesday, April 6, 2010

I Just Don't Get It

I don't understand how people can risk giving up everything they have and the person that loves them most for a few seconds of fun. I am sick of hearing about Tiger Woods an all his mistresses. The first thing I think about is his poor wife and all that she must feel every time she sees one of the million articles or broadcasts about her husbands betrayals.

His selfishness not only makes his partner feel insignificant and undesirable, it makes these behaviors seem almost normal or expected because he is a public figure and a role model to many. Being a celebrity is not an excuse. Being a priest is not an excuse. Being Chris Brown isn't an excuse. Just because you have a different status than the rest of us simpletons doesn't mean you are entitled to be forgiven for horrible behavior or that what you have done is warranted justification. That behavior is unacceptable.

I am dealing with trust issues in my own household right now. Sometimes I want to walk out. What's worth asking is "will this happen again?" Nine times out of ten the answer is yes.

I'm not sure I have felt worse about myself in the last few years, this morning being most significantly horrible. And I haven't actually been physically cheated on. I can't imagine being in the spotlight after having someone, that I considered the closest person to me, risk everything we built together. Is it that these people don't think they're going to get caught or that they feel they will be redeemed and forgiven so it's worth the risk?

When I am in a relationship I hold my partner on a pedestal and they are pretty much my everything. That's how it should be and the person you choose to spend your life with should be grateful for it and gracious that you love them so. After all, you're giving another person the gift of holding all your secrets, your fears, your insecurities, your vulnerabilities, your intimacies and more importantly, your love and trust. I left a relationship because I was taken for granted and I don't ever want to feel that way again. So WTF is up with all these people taking their partners for granted? WTF?

I just don't get it.

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